By Jared Chausow
By Katie Toth
By Elizabeth Flock
By Albert Samaha
By Anna Merlan
By Jon Campbell
By Jon Campbell
By Albert Samaha
Things happen to me. Things some people find unbelievable. So I've been documenting my life, in ink. Some of the ink is red. It comes from the heart.
I've been writing about emergency assistance, Medicaid and food stamps, and laws written to make things impossible. About bureaucracy and long lines.
A mixture of emotions overcomes a body waiting in these relief lines. Relief isn't one of them. These lines can shatter a person's self- confidence. Their will to live.
In May 1999 a new welfare system went into effect in New York City.
People had to return to main offices, fill out new forms, and wait for new cards.
I was warned. "The lines are going to be very, very long. I'm warning you now, so you don't write about it anymore." Words I'd written had come out in the Voice and my caseworker had phoned.
I was told to report to the first floor of a 14th Street building, for a form, then take it to a building 10 blocks away.
The next day, in the morning, lines were long and chaotic.
A well-dressed man screamed into a wall phone. He screamed with a rage bordering on tears. He'd been waiting three hours. He'd arrived early and waited outdoors. Had a job interview which now he'd missed and no one would talk to him here. A little girl clung to his knees.
People tried not to stare, and looked at their documentation, their child if they had one, their cart if they were homeless. He continued to scream, but how could he cry? He was a grown man in a suit, in public, with a small child holding his knees.
After an hour I was told there was no form. To go to the third floor and wait.
In the elevator to the third floor, a man in his twenties or thirties paced frantically. People moved to the corners. He'd lost his job, he said. He'd lost his insurance. His teeth were aching and he was in pain. He'd applied for Medicaid three months ago but received nothing. He had no job, no insurance.
When you lose your job, you lose your dignity.
When you lose your job in New York, you lose your teeth.
Forty-four million Americans have no health insurance of any kind.
No one in the elevator headed for the third floor had health insurance.
This man needed medical intervention. The phrase "human capital approach" is often used when intervention is needed. It equates a person's value with the amount of money they'll make in a lifetime. Women have less value than men. The homeless have zero value. The often unemployed have zero value.
On the third floor, caseworkers and clerks were overwhelmed, understaffed, and at a breaking point.
A homeless man, heavy jacket stained with soup or coffee, held a newspaper and laughed hysterically. He had a thick scarf tied around his waist. He was dressed for a storm.
Several people sat in plastic chairs and rocked back and forth. Some of them wore headsets.
A guard walked by dangling a nightstick. It wouldn't have to be used. The implication was clear.
A middle-aged woman in front of me kept wiping the area beneath her eyes. She was neatly dressed, alone, and crying. She kept turning around as if she were looking for someone.
A woman I'd seen before was there again. A thin, homeless woman, probably in her seventies. She'd been in Brooklyn the day I was sent there weeks ago. She sat with perfect posture, in a worn suit and worn hat. An organized broken cart. Possibly an organized broken heart. She was an old, homeless woman who refused to surrender her dignity.
People were confused and crowded the front desk. They yelled at clerks and clerks yelled back.
The place was combustible. There was a commotion and people jumped on chairs to see. There was no gunshot, but the room filled with the feeling anyway.
I saw a young man lying on the floor, silent, near a desk.
A guard said he'd had a seizure. He'd been there the day before and also had had a seizure. He wasn't taking his medication, the guard said. Another guard stood at a distance.
I told the main guard that I'd had seizures in the past. That I could talk with the young man if he wanted me to. He looked at me without speaking. I said I'll tell him how important it is to take his medication. I walked into an area where ordinarily I would have been forbidden. The man had a hand across his forehead. I knelt beside him and said, "I've had seizures in the past. It's really important to take your medication."