By Keegan Hamilton
By Albert Samaha
By Village Voice staff
By Tessa Stuart
By Albert Samaha
By Steve Weinstein
By Devon Maloney
By Tessa Stuart
The court has spoken. We can gather on East 49th Street, in the shadow of the UN, shouting our lungs out against the war. But we can't march beyond that cul de sac. Unless this ruling is overturnedor violatedwe'll be cornered. It's a good metaphor for my state of mind.
Civil rights, abortion rights, AIDS funding, no nukes, earth first: You name it; I've acted up. But this protest feels nothing like the ones I attended on a regular basis back when the world seemed changeable by other than military means. Those rampaging longhairs in films about the '60s: I was one. You might have found me running with a wet T-shirt around my face to protect me from tear gas. I might have been carrying a placard or a rock. In those days, I never doubted the power of massing and resisting. It was easy to tap my rage when I believed it mattered. Now I don't. That's why I'm marching on Saturday.
Allow me to date myself. In the first grade, I got my own dog tag, a prize for being a kid during the Korean War. It was supposed to identify me and my blood type in the event of a nuclear attack. In air-raid drills, the teacher told us to get under our desks and face away from Manhattan. That way, we wouldn't be blinded by the A-bomb that might hit Times Square, miles from our home in the unimportant Bronx. I did as I was told because it was kind of scary, kind of funlike reading a horror comic. This was about a decade before students stopped taking cover, as a statement of dissent. Back then, no one marched for peaceor so I thought until I was old enough to travel to Greenwich Village.
Wearing sandals in my neighborhood was a good way to get your feet stomped, so I didn't put them on until I got to Washington Square. Then I was ready to sit in a café, sipping coffee that tasted like nothing people drank in the Bronx. One Sunday, while getting into my beatnik costume, I saw something weird under the arch: a knot of well-dressed people standing in silence. They looked a little like the space invaders in those movies where you couldn't tell the aliens from real people. In fact, they were Quakers witnessing for peace at the height of the Cold War.
They were out there every time I went to Washington Square, but I never spoke to them. They didn't look cool, and besides there was no purpose to their vigil as far as I could tell. No one could stop the arms race; you could only take cover. That's what I learned from my father. He'd been scarred by the red scare, and as a "federal employee" (actually a postman) he was worried about losing his job if I did anything political. Naturally, I was up for pissing him off.
But I might never have tried if it weren't for a small band of pinkos who survived McCarthyism in the obscurity of the Bronx. They were a bit like the Quakers, but with flannel shirts and Navajo jewelryand they were much classier than me. I lapped up their politics like a lesson in upward mobility. As a result I went to my first civil rights march, sponsored by the Emma Lazarus League, long before I heard of Martin Luther King. It drew 3000 people at most. My father glared as I left the house for Washington. On the sidelines, men photographed the crowd. I thought they were reporters, but there was no coverage in the papers. For a week, my father went to work in a panic.
I didn't realize my most cherished ambition that day, which was to get laid, but I did find a new capacity. It was about protesting as an alternative to puking. Racism, as I knew it, made me nauseous. When I went downtown with my black friends and the cops ordered us off the street, I felt like vomiting. Now there was something I could do about it. Marching gave me a sense of possibility, along with a political button to wear with my sandals. It was the start of a long love affair with Navajo jewelry and agitating for social change.
Still, I never thought my adventures in dissent would amount to anything more than self-discovery. That changed in 1963, when I returned to Washington for another civil rights march, this time with 300,000 people. I was so tired from getting up at 4 a.m. that I fell asleep during Dr. King's speech. What I do remember is rolling through the white D.C. suburbs in a caravan of buses. All the stores were closed and no one was on the streets. But when we got to the inner city, there were black people in every window waving American flags. They saw the march as a patriotic event, not an exercise in dissent. Something in America was about to change.
I won't go into the other demos I attended in the '60s, except to say that a number of them turned violent, courtesy of the police. I saw many more heads busted for protesting than for using drugs. I'm talking hundreds at Columbia University and in Chicago during 1968. I would take off my press credentials in a riot, to lower the odds of being beaten. But the danger was part of the thrill. I was living on adrenaline, from rush to rush. Running from the cops, every hair on my arms stood up and I raced for blocks in what seemed like a flash. It was way better than speed because I was high on my power in the world. Fighting against a war waged by a system run amok. I was sure we could stop itand we did.