I don’t think so, mind you! In fact, the show in which AM was set to help others recover seemed like a cathartic idea and a way for him to work out his own issues while helping others. (Plus I always think any exposure is good exposure.) But a posting by someone way more expert in this field, Dr. Deni Carise, for the Phoenix House blog suggest that AM’s TV stint could have been better handled and may have had something to do with his tragic downfall.
DJ AM: Why He Went Too Far
Phoenix House Thought Piece For National Recovery Month
by Dr. Deni Carise
When I learned about the death of DJ AM–the celebrity spinner who struggled with addiction, but stayed sober for over 11 years–I felt the tragedy at the gut level.
I have been in the substance abuse field for over 20 years, first as a treatment provider and then as a researcher. But it is through the eyes of a
person in long-term recovery who has buried family members and close friends (one who was sober over 17 years prior to relapsing) that I understand the battle DJ AM faced.
Recovery, no matter how many years one has nurtured it, is never fully self-sustaining. It needs continued attention and dedication, just like any
other chronic health problem. So, I ask, can someone in recovery ever be 100 percent confident they will not go back to drugs or alcohol?
Last year, DJ AM suffered critical injuries when a Learjet carrying him burst into flames during an aborted takeoff in South Carolina. He and Travis Barker of Blink-182 were the only survivors. After more than a decade of clean living, he found himself needing pain medications with abuse liability; he reportedly developed problems with opiates and benzodiazepines.
Then, he shot MTV’s Gone Too Far–an intervention-style reality show set to premier on October 5. He said his inspiration was to work with other addicts in recovery, his passion since the beginning of his sobriety.
I, like DJ AM, believe it’s important that people with past addiction problems commit to helping others. But he may have truly “gone too far.” The
drug-using world might not have been one he was prepared to re-visit, given his recent losses and difficulties with pain medications. “I have to calm down after every shoot,” he was quoted as saying. “It’s very intense.” In video excerpts, he described buying a crack pipe to show how easy it was. Then he said, “I walked out.holding [the pipe]…and I realized my palms were sweaty and I was like, ‘Wait a minute, this is not smart for me.'”
Even after 11 years of sobriety, this isn’t unusual. Ask any one of us in recovery when someone inadvertently changes the TV station and a scene from Scarface shows a group of people snorting cocaine. It’s been over 24 years since I’ve snorted coke, but suddenly, I’m holding my breath–as if I’d just done a line.
So, should DJ AM have done the show? Is MTV at fault for his relapse and death? Here’s the bottom line: Just as people with diabetes are responsible for eating a sensible diet and exercising, we are also responsible for managing our recovery. But, just as the spouse of a diabetic assists their partner in managing their illness, we need people to help us, too.
Based on my research, my clinical background, and my own recovery experience, if I had been DJ AM’s friend, I would have told him, “Examine
your motives. Think ahead to any emotions that might arise. Make plans to have the folks who support your recovery nearby when you’re taping and after each session. Talk to them, tell them what you’re feeling, and renew your commitment to your recovery each night. Most importantly, promise you will call me before you pick up a drink or a drug.”
And if I had worked for MTV, I would have advised them, “Make sure DJ AM has someone with him during filming–a long-term recovery mentor who knows him well and will help him process any cravings. Don’t ask him if the show is bothering him; he might be the last to notice it.”
We have to wonder if this type of support might have saved his life.
This Saturday, September 12, I will think of him when I represent Pennsylvania as the state delegate at the A&E Recovery Rally–one of the key events for National Recovery Month. An expected 10,000 of us will march across the Brooklyn Bridge. I will walk in memory of my stepson, who died of an overdose just 15 months ago at the age of 30, and my old friends Mark and Mike, both of whom lost their battles with addiction.
And I will walk in honor of DJ AM, who wanted so deeply to offer meaningful support to those in recovery.
It’s now up to us to carry his mission forward.